Life is all about decisions - big and small

Taking this opportunity to ruminate over the past,... i thougt i'll put down how i became wot i am now.... but this one is especially for u deepti ,.. wishing u all the best, do ur xams well..

"When it came to ppl like me... life was all about either MBBS or BE"

Here's an algo on how i made my decision .... which made me wot i am today :

A week before entrance... all the thoughts that went into my poor little cerebrum.....

"Shuld i take medicine, shuld i not take medicine"

Pros:
Wow, drawings - i'm good at them, something to do with practical life - very interesting, Doctor - none to boss over - gives me independence.., Rs.100 per consultation... - wow - but only if i'm successful,
Weightage: 30%
Cons:
Well Medicine involves touching organisms that live... and i don't like the idea of having some1's life in my hand, coupled with the nauseating feeling of catching a frog and operating a person.
Memory: hmm... will i remember medicine names.... wot was the name.. of that medicine.. oh i forgot...
Cost: Cost of education.. running into lacs.. well i'm not born a millionaire..
Seats: Wot hopes ... getting into 200 seats from around 50000 students...
(could compete only in TNPCEE,.. AIIMS and PMPD r way outta syllabus)
Weightage: 70%
Result: ok ok... Cons weigh more than pros....fine ditch it.... don't write the bio entrance....

Ok Ok next field...Engg
Pros:
negate(Cons of Medicine)... eee dat gives me quite a big weightage
More analytical, can apply my mind - also interesting. Now big question .. wot branch.. ( no engg's in family... whom am i supposed to ask.. well no one.. start collecting material , analyse and conclude)
Weightage: 90%
Cons:
No independence at work... some1 will be there to boss over.. accept it.
Not doing it at IIT... (well syllabus way out of scope)
Weightage: 10%
Result: Ok ... since its not gonna be MBBS,... i might as well take up BE (actually it is not supposed to sound that way... it more like.... "BE, BE, BE".... yeah... not MBBS .... made my mind partly up by Jan 2000 itself)

A week before counselling

"Now that its Engg that is gonna be.... which branch?"

Mech: Dad's fav., Evergreen field,low pay,less job opportunities, monotonous, invovles a lot of physical strain (i'm a weak chap..)...but... machine drawings ...interesting, lots of problemsolving.. interesting)... final verdict: ditch
(was offered free seat at Anna Univ & Cochin Univ & REC,Trichy )

EEE: less job opportunities, circuit diagrams, problems kinda interesting ,..motors, et al.. kinda not interesting... but again the low job opportunities play a crucial role... so ditch it.
(free seats in all except Anna)

ECE: less job opportunitie in EC field (in India, better in US), but still will be eligible for IT cos.. but wot the hell i never liked electrons and protons and worse still i began hating them when i came to Mosfets and JFets.. and to hell when it comes to signals and communication something that i still hate even now.... thank god i didn't take up that field.. i dunno how i would have ever survived 8 sems.
(free seats in all except Anna)

Civil: buildings, low scope, low pay, not my taste. Ditch

Arch: again builidings, drawings - i'm damn good at that, but again low scope, et al. Ditch
(Really hi marks in Architecture aptitude test, wuld surely have got into Anna)

CompSci: Big time deabte...(compsci or IT)... well finally after lot of reading and asking around.... come to know that CompSci involves a bit of HW...meaing involes more of Electronic....meaning i must avoid it... lots of job opportunities, opportunities for higher studies abroad, hi pay, good working environment, low physical strain, enjoyable
(Free Seats in SVCE, Sathyabama, SRM, Crescent, ...)

IT: Hottest branch at my time.... craze was that hi ... very little Electronic... more of comps, algos, progs, mobile tech, mulitmedia, web design, op sys, IT, maths, et al... came to know about all this later..they turned out to be really interesting.....a field that relies less on memory and more on application power...... lots of job opportunities, opportunities for higher studies abroad, hi pay, good working environment, low physical strain, enjoyable.........final verdict: Grab with both hands

(Payment Seats at SVCE, PSG)

Auto, Aero, Marine, et al.. not wee bit intereted.

Final Note:
I got my comp only in the second yr of college.,.. i just knew the basics of a computer till 12... unlike all the kids these days... i never knew nething about programming since i was a bio student in 11th and 12th... i don't know wot made me go into this field of SW industry.. but still everything was for good i realise now.... That just shows how u can change ur life from one path to another ... and remain in the top... provided u don't loose hope.. u r willing to learn... and u r willing to face the challenge... and more importantly... willing to change....!
I did not chose enggg because i was bad i biology.. i was good at it infact very good at it... but i knew i wuld not be good at it in practical life...
I have never ever regretted the decision i made in my life in choosing IT @ SVCE.... it was one of the best phases of my life.. lots of interesing friends,. and lots of new skills... finally landing me now at HCL... Never let others control ur life, u'll regret it later, u know wot is best for u,

"chase ur dreams!, if it is truly urs"

Split wide across

I know i have not been updating this page for quite some long time. dunno y maybe i just didn't feel like it or may i just didn't have nething to muse about. Well now that i'v got something to mull over i thougt i might as well use up a few bytes on google's mega space for my little pondering.

Talk about job satisfaction. Now i know wot it is meant when people quit companies for need of job satisfaction. As for me working here its been all good and satisfying and enjoyable for me till this point in time.. till i came to know how u can really feel when some of your best ideas go down the drain due to some obstinant PL... well when the PM can be on lines with me and accept my views y can't the PL. Guess being a fresher has its negative points after all.. Now i'm totally split between 2 worlds..

The world of 'speak and u will be heard':

Jan and Feb 2005 the best parts of my life in the SW industry. Coming out of college as a fresher, i never knew i'd get so much freedom to participate wholly in a fullfledged development project. goint thro the phases of UseCase, SRS with discussions every other day.. more like group discussions. With the feeling of being heard. Utilizing my full potiential. Wow i still remember those days...suddenly one fine day all this bliss does a vanishing act, the day the PM had to undergo surgery...and then came the other world.. in comes the PL a person supposed to be too good at .Net but lacking as much in attitude

The other world of 'speak and u will be put down':

March 2005. the worst parts of the project into the DB design and Class design.. with most views or opinions being put down by the PL. Mine being a 2 member project the other person more interested in pleasing the PL put me down when the need arises...wot sickening feeling.. I guess by the end of the month i'v decided to be more meek nodding my head to any thing wotever stupid it sounds. Wot am i going to lose nothing..just follow the leader be it wrong or be it right...
Not that i blame him entierly...he's still good in some aspects..but the thing he treats me in a way i ought not to be treated is wot is getting to my nerves. Just hoping rite now that the PM comes back as soon as possible.

Day by day realization dawns upon me that i somehow do not fit into this place. For that matter do i really fit into this world?

This and that!

Why does the security at the gates of HCL salute me as i come in. I seriously don't like considering any one as below me. i dont' expect him to salute me also... after all he's also a human being like me. Just because i sit on a cosy chair before a comp in the posh air conditioned interiors of a huge glass walled building and he in the warm security room at the gate.. These r certain things that i am totally against! as far as i'm concerned we r all equal... his job is to be acting as security and not saluting me...

Some other things i'v noticed.. especially the female species.. i'v always dislike the female breed at office... i can't help but loathe at some of their gross behaviours... next time any of u have the chance to glimpse at them during any breaks... u'll always find them walking about flauting their cell phones.. i can't blame them entirely because... at least we guys have pockets to carry them in... but these females in their churidars don't have any means to carry them... so they just take them in their hands whereever they go along even if it is to the canteen to have tea....

Important things i'v done in the last month:

1. Started off solving at uva.acm.es

2. Started off participating in topcoder contests

3. Started off paying a visit ot the gym at HCL